Feed Me

So, my previous posts are looking at questions surrounding who I am. Read here, here and here if you haven't yet.

Next question to ask myself: What do you do?

I believe in following my dreams and doing what I am passionate about drives me forward and gives that bubble of excitement each day. I refuse to succumb to the pessimistic outlook that you have to make do. I will not allow my dreams to be squandered by the voices who say you need to face up reality. Reality can and should be a wonderful thing. Too many days of saying to myself I can't and I'm not good enough. No.

When I was in Auckland, I was running a seafood restaurant. I woke up each day excited about going to work. I worked a lot of hours but never felt tired because I LOVED my job. I am passionate about managing restaurants. I love to see people enjoying great food and great service. I love the family feeling a good team gets when working together in such intense work environments. You become close knit. You work hard and party hard and create great friendships.

I've lost some of that passion. I'm not working where I want to be, now I'm back in England. I appreciate where I work and am very thankful for the security it brings, but it isn't the passion fueler in my life. I will be changing that though. I will not procrastinate any longer.

I am a writer too. Writing brings forth passion, imagination, inspiration. When I write I feel my inner self bursting forth wanting to reach out and grasp people at their deepest core. When I write I want to hook people and engage them in a whole new way.

I do want to get published and have two things I'm writing, which I hope I will see on a bookshelf one day. I grapple with self belief and motivation though. I don't take my writing skills seriously and allow my depressed mentality (the Intruder) to quash the belief and passion. Again, I will not procrastinate.

What do I do? I like to inspire and pass on my passion. Whether it's through written word or the food on your plate, I want you to feel enriched.